Showing posts with label Writings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Writings. Show all posts

Friday, 9 March 2012

Socha Naa Tha...

Guzre jo haseen lamhe the saath tere
woh dhoop aur woh barish ke lamhe
socha na tha kabhi teri bheegi hasee ko taras jayenge
aur socha na tha rango se un lamho ko
kore kagaj par kaid karne ki koshish mein
girte aansun se woh tasveer bigad jaegi

chup jata hai jab chand us badal mein
woh khuli aankhein aur tanha raat ka akelapan
socha na tha khulein balon ko tere phir na chu payenge
aur socha na tha un balon ki khusboo ko
foolon mein dhundhane ki koshish mein
hum sara aasheeya hi ujad denge

ladte hai jo do yaar kahin bazaar mein
woh aashiqi mein ghula zara sa pagalpan
socha na tha tere nakhron par phir muskura na payenge
aur socha na tha sirf usi dupatte ki aad mein
woh naya jahan banane ki zid mein
hum kisi aur se ishq na lada payenge

us reshmi jism ki narmi aur garmahat
woh bhare jawa badan par maheen tang libaaz
socha na tha in sard raaton mein haq phir na jata payenge
aur socha na ki har lamha tadap kar
tumhe apne sapno mein lane ki koshish mein
hum sari zindagi kabhi so hi na payenge 

©Rakesh 2012

Monday, 31 October 2011

“There Are No Mango Trees along the LoC”


His sons did not listen to him. He would plead Bashrat every month and Saqib every other, as they took turns to take care of him in his last days, to take him back home.

“I’ve to refurbish the interiors of John & King gallery in West London next week. The firm will recommend my name for lifetime-membership of Royal Society of Architects if they like my work,” Bashrat would say.

“The molar-surgery of Mr. Neville Hitchkraft is scheduled this Friday. He’s a former Labour Party MP from Manchester,” Saqib would argue.

His memory was betraying him but the images of Firozpur, his white-painted home, and childhood afternoons spent under the mango-garden, survived.

And finally, one day, after seventy two years and five months and twenty-one days after Abdul Ali first left India — on a ship from Bombay to London with the help of a Parsi gentleman, Faramroz Wadia, to study Law — his soul abandoned his body. And against his wishes, they buried him not in Firozpur, the homeland of his ancestors in India, but thousands of miles away, uprooted and exiled in London.

His soul swam across the Atlantic for thirty days, wandered across the Sahara for a year, before sympathetic djinns showed him the right directions, braved the black-magic of gypsies in Arabia for sixteen months, and coiled itself in a corner of an unoccupied cabin; on a ship to Bombay from Aden. Its resolution to see its homeland and its mango-garden helped it survive all those adversities. In Bombay, it overheard and followed a Sikh family; journeyed with them in an overnight train to Amritsar. Overjoyed, it was the first to jump off the train before the train halted completely. It ran as fast as it could for the next three hours before it reached Firozpur.

The Sun was high and the town was abandoned. Its eyes looked for the mango-garden, where it was to spend each of its forthcoming day and night. But there was no mango-garden. Instead, there was a barbed-fencing on both sides as long as it could see. There were tanks and cannons, and men with guns patrolling on each side.

To its shock, it saw several of its kind: souls of the dead in-between the two fences; in no man’s land. They were laughing and celebrating. They were cheerful and loud. They seemed happy and content. They belonged to no country. They saw it and they knew it existed. They called it over and asked it,

“What do you look for?”

And after two years and five months and seven days, Abdul Ali’s soul spoke for the first time,

“Where are my mango-trees?”

They all looked at each other and then at him before an old-man’s soul answered,

“There are no mango trees across the LoC. Years after you left they divided this country. Hindus and Muslims…”

“Yes. I know that,” Abdul Ali’s soul screamed, “I know all of that.” It almost cried.

“Some religion-fanatics came that day,” the old man’s soul continued with coldness, “and they argued if the trees were Hindus or Muslims; that they should remain in India or go to Pakistan. They asked the branches, the leaves, and the fruits, to what religion they belonged, but none would answer. They would come every day to shout and curse, but the trees would not answer. And one night, someone burned the trees.”

“They burned my trees?! They killed my trees? The only reminiscence of my childhood!” Abdul Ali’s soul shrieked with a pain that penetrated the calmness of the dead. The Sun dimmed in brightness and the wind stopped blowing. And the soldiers patrolling across the border felt restless.

“Next morning there was a massacre. The Hindus accused Muslims. The Muslims accused Hindus. The Hindus killed Muslims. The Muslims killed Hindus. The Hindus raped the brides of Muslims. The Muslims raped the brides of Hindus. The Hindus burnt the children of Muslims. The Muslims burnt the children of Hindus. The Hindus blamed the Muslims of starting it. The Muslims blamed the Hindus of starting it. There was blood of the Hindus. There was blood of the Muslims. The blood of the Hindus was red. The blood of the Muslims was red.” the old man’s soul completed.

Abdul Ali’s soul fell on ground; and when the night was cold and the stars shone bright, it took its hands away from its face. And it saw:

Millions of like it, as long as it could see
Between those who lived, on both sides of LoC
Children of massacre, from here and from there
Now all dead, they chose to belong to nowhere
Some were killed in Punjab, and some in Sindh
All in the name of Pak, all in the name of Hind
Now living in peace, and living in unison
Because they had no names, and they had no religion
Abdul Ali’s soul, no longer longed for mango trees
It learnt from the dead, to bury sorry histories
The brothers across the fence, it wished could understand
The love which bonds, the dead of the no man’s land

©Rakesh 2011

Thursday, 2 June 2011

"Colors of Skin - First Excerpt"


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First excerpt from "Colors of Skin"- a novella. Brainchild of my moments with melancholy, nostalgia, solitude and enlightenment. Wish me luck.

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"....had wiped out all the moist of his eyes that the dates on the calendar over the wall of his room appeared blurred to him. He decided to take a bath instead.

While bathing the thought of masturbation again played in his mind, but he let go the temptation. He didn't use any soap but stood still under the showers. The drizzling drops of water took some of his body heat. He saw himself in the mirror. His eyes were red and puff and he observed that his skin has lost all its radiance. At twenty-nine he could see the creases on his forehead and could notice bare scalp above both sides of his temples. He couldn't take that sight anymore and was appalled to see his self this way. He decided to go out, exploring the roads of the city. He was always of the belief that long walks gave him the required time for making important decisions, deciding on priorities and above all, coming out of dispirited mentation.

He searched for the least crumpled shirt in his closet, stood perplexed for a moment, analysed his options & conjectured that the gray one was the best pick along with a faded jeans. It took him a hundred odd steps and soon he was on the city road that unified one end of the city to the other. He started walking along the pavement, observing vehicles coming from opposite direction. He stopped at a nearby shop to buy a pack of cigarette, lit up one and continued moving. Fags really didn't give him any highs, neither did they accelerate the flow of the red life in his arteries, he thought, but gave him a feeling that he indeed was at a serious task. Task, he was yet to figure out.

"I'll be dead by tomorrow" he suddenly said to himself. ...."

©Rakesh 2011